Yeah finally exam over.......been so busy busy busy for the past 2 years.......yeah 2 years!!! Why I say 2 years? Cos ever since 2 years ago...I started working for my current boss, at the same time I worked for MOM ....then during that 3 months holiday ... i worked 7 days a week! with weekend gotta go knock on pple door 6hrs each day! Weekday work at office in e day do calling at nite!

Then after that sch starts...and I actually agree to do URS (undergrad research student) for sch prof....omg. Make myself god damn busy with work + URS + study......then ran off to HK for exchange. But well worth the effort since i earned enough to pay for my own HK exchange and even get to live comfortablely there + get to travel.

Enjoying there ... but also very busy ... with work + URS (yes...at there i am still working! bo bian~~) + study + being a tourist + meet up with vampire frens. SO busy that I actually forgot to go to Avenue of star to sit there alone quietly ...... n stare blankly~~ shit why did i forget~

Back to Singapore...i am still busy with 2 work (work + URS) + CS3214 ! ...... Then start this sem ... URS suddenly no news liao, feel abit bad but yeah finally 1 thing less to do. THen work + study .... busy busy busy until recent 3 days! Finally finished my exam ... and got 3 days break before my holiday full time work start. SO long ...... its been so long since the last time I feel i can rest with nothing at the back of my mind (ok lah..got but not so much liao .....almost can say nothing!).

So happy...feel so great now.

Today went to cut my hair......did highlight again, was a package that came with treatment. Hahah...i mountain turtle...nv do treatment before and I tot probably is just crappy applying some gel like thingy.......but i am wrong! lol..got steaming also! Was my first time, at first abit worried cos i see smoke coming out from my hair! haha.........that person walk off so i was thinking omg.....did something went wrong? hahaah....ops....LOL....seldom do such things is like that. Was very worth while, cut + highlight + treatment = $70 nia.......and that person did abit of massaurce (ar...how to spell =.=) too.

But then again....I am not used to my new hair style....haha ...nite nite!

人。。。都必須經過生老病死﹐ 而我的年齡。。。也到了要面對這個的時候了。

My first encounter with death was during Primary 5 when my grandmother (my mum side) pass away...I was still a little too young.

My 2nd encoutner was 2006 when my grandfather (my mum side) pass away, alot of things happened back then, I was worried about my mum.

Now...I am afraid of the 3rd time, as this time, is someone whom i loved dearly. I must admit eversince I enter secondary school I been seeing him less and less. Especially after alot of things happened at home, I went there even lesser as I dunno how to face some of my relatives. However I will never forget the time we spent together, and how I owned my life to you.

Without you, there is no me, it was that faithful morning or afternoon, that we are fated to be grandfather and grand daughter. If you never stop the abortion, I dunno where I will be at now. I do not hold grudges against my parents as I understand life wasn't easy and their concern, thus instead I prove that they made the right decision in giving birth to me by getting into Poly, Uni...and earning to help with the family.

Although i dun hold grudges against my parents, I felt indebted to you, as you saved me and I know from young, maybe because of that incident, you been very good to me, bringing me out to buy candies...giving me a number of 20 cents coin so that I can take those "電動車".

Despite in the midst of exam, I dunno why I changed my mind to visit you yesterday instead of after my exam. I am so glad I changed my mind, what i see hurts my heart. You are so skinny (i noe u been slimming down eversince the operation) ... but seeing you on bed I can't help but to feel heartache. Looking into your eyes I know our time together are limited.

You were saying back then i was still a 小妞妞, going down to 阿公家 (your house) everyday after school after i bathed. Asking you to bring me out to have a walk (you drink kopi i play 電動車...and you buy 4D while I ask for candies n chocolate). Deep down i am still that 小妞妞﹐ just that now I am bigger in size...a 大妞妞.

You know too time is running out, yet I know I can't be sad in front of you, so I said alot of optimistic words. But i really hope, you can see me grad, with 方帽子... god please give us more time, let him see me graduate.

How I wish i grad this semester...

I know parents dun like to talk abt such "touch wood" things, but i think truth shd be told then we will have the urgency to visit ... what if ... touch woood...what if we missed our chance? So i told my siblings immediately after I came back. I dun want anyone, be it my ah gong or my siblings to have 遺憾。

My dearest 阿公﹐ please be strong and really hope you can see me wear 方帽子。 I will bring the graduation grown to 阿公家 and take a photo with you in 方帽子。 Please give me the chance to do so ... please wait for me. ~~ >< ~~

Today (23rd) ... was the first time i short.......and failed badly! aiyo.....shorting's pressure is too big for me to tahan.......so i guess i will not short ( or try not to short) ... be more patient just buy.

Every mistake is a lesson, so whats the lesson for today?

1. Read more news before acting (yes........tio annual report release!)

2. WHen u noe is a wrong decision must act quick......i would have loss $100 lesser if I dang ji li duan the moment i think i made a wrong decision

3. Know when to cut loss....well the counter might go down tml (although i dun think so) .... or on friday, but then I decided to keep to my cut loss amt, although i still end up cutting loss at a higher price ... but tats due to technical problem not me. I am glad i can control my emotion n cut loss before things get too stressful for me.

As for now, i can only say yes....a bit sad i loss $$ but also believe today's mistake will be beneficial in the long run (well...u can say i am trying to justify my error, or you can look it in a better way ... i am trying to turn my mistake into a learning oppotunity).

I have always been worried that things were well n good for me that I might get too happy n forget some basics....and also i kept feeling i do not know when to cut loss. Today .... proven i can cut loss.....hahaa.

But sad..now i am further away from my NDS~~ my profit reduced by almost half, so now only abt 4-5% ROI , 10% of my initial goal~~ NDS........nvm ... shall learn to be patient and come in again when price is right, meanwhile focus on my exam.

Btw......today base on TA, i expect these 3 counter to fall:
SPC - gapped down today and looking at the hammer + cross from previous 2 days, the bull shd be gone. Not surprise if it down to $7 in the next 2-4 working days.

Sembmar - losing steam....dropped today .... looks like a affirmation of downtrend.

ST eng - everyday is closing lower but prices are rising for the past few days...i believe is due to buying up becos of dividend....but base on the candle....i think the downtrend is stronger than the uptrend.....shd be coming down either tml or friday.

Missed the dividend this time round but well, observe then ^^ hee...next yr can join in..haha. Back to my revision or maybe viwawa abit! haha

Today (19th) went to west coast park to celebrate jeremy's bdae.....happy outing with the GanG. heeeee

Dun ask me wats with the poker cards...haha no idea sia. But not bad right the way we put!

Wah....jeremy u got psp sia...now the GanG got 3 person liao ~~ why no one play NDS one......sad............aiyo how ar.

Been nua-ing for these 2 days..tml must really really study........argg...now like not enough time to study becos these 2 days not studying~~ OMG ...hahaha nvm..concentrate concentrate!

Today went to watch the Forbidden Kingdom, as expected story line not very fascinating, but love the fighting inside.....good for watching KONG FU...but not so much of storyline. The 2 female lead...like not much part also...but I must say Liu Yi Fei very beautiful. hahaha

back to the bbq....just now was playing volley ball with tina they all...then become monkey then we grab each other and i fell on the floor on my right side of by butt! pain pain now......LOL...these few days cannot seat on hard chair...abit pain! LOL.

24yrs old liao........I feel so old. hahaha

kk...go wahjong abit then i go koon. nite all.....+ i want today's photo! haha

Today a friend said I was speculating not investing...mm....few days before another friend said I am considered investing as I did analysis and not pure gut feeling prediction....and praying for prices to rise.

I did a search on the internet......and yet i find no answer as to it. Why I ask such questions? Because I don't really like the idea of being an speculator.....i prefer investor.

However am I now a speculator or investor?

In general, investor tend to hold investment (stock) for a long period of time...for example 5 years....and they invest in so call safe analysis. However to me.....when it comes to stock market nothing is save, who noes what will happen in 5 years 10 years time? Anything that give you more than bank interest is NOT safe....is about risk management.

As for speculator, they says is mainly short term buy sell, e.g few days to gain quick bucks and they don't base on sound analysis.

Now...I am which one? I must admit so far my trades are short term...ranging from 2 days to 2 weeks. However I am trading on the basis that should things don't go as expected, I would hold...it can be as long as a year or 2.....or more. And I only trade on decent company not those few cents penny shares that god know when they will just become some worthless paper. On top of these, I trade base on Technical Analysis.....which means I do homework and not just pure rumor / feel trading.

However if you know is going to drop, why hold? Why not sell and buy back at lower?

So am i a speculator or an investor? I really not very sure, of cos i hope to be the latter...haha. I would say i am a mix, I do my homeowrk, I don't short ( i might? haha..), i dun chase growth (trying my best not to), i buy with basis, with holding power...knowing the risk...with the ability to change to a long term investment. Its just that I dun see why I should hold when I know it will drop. (ok ... although i do sell a little too early ... haha)

Anyway ... I believe as long as I dun sail off my current strategies....I would be ok .... note , ok != safe....is abt risk management, patient, self descpline! $$ is so tempting that many can't wait to go in ... and go in at wrong time.

Learned alot at SGX center yesterday about MACD and MFI (money flow index) ... however I realise I am not good at applying at other stocks....got problem with framing the trend...but maybe with more observation it will be better.

Month end US will announce their economy report for the quater + maybe fed cut. DO you think is good or bad? A good news will urge the market to rise while a bad one will plunge...rumor? No this is not rumor but news...haha. I am out of market for now but haven decide if I should go in ... waiting for a time to go in for dividend.....but might not be able to do so with prices soaring. If I can't go in, I will just wait n oberserve, may miss out on earning but well.....is ok :)

Hee...todya nv study...tml must work hard!

These few days quite exicting...actually i didn't care much about the stock market but was happy abt entering at the right time. Take profit today.....by far i am 24.33% (abt 10% in earning) on my way to my target...yeah. Still need 4 times the earning up to now to reach my target then buy 2 NDS as reward. (why 2? 1 for myself 1 for my sis).

TIred now...sleeping soon so tml can wake up early to mug with a fresh mind for lab test tml. Glad today's written test not too badly done (hope i did it correctly lah...mm...everyone's answer are diff! LOL)

Still got chance for A....but today abit slack after i get back...nvm today sleep early rest well, tml morning chiong till 1pm go sch for test.

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Market Talk

Testing my Technical analysis again, today is base on Semb Mar and St eng.

St engg
St engg been rising for 2 days and forming a doji (cross) today, thus i estimate tml prices will fall abit. (either open lower or close price lower than open price)

However it is issuing dividend in end of april...thus i think generally is in a uptrend. (despite supposingly to be a down trend for the cycle).

Semb Mar
Chonging alot for the past 2 days. See profit taknig, considering that it is reaching its peak, tml or friday should be dropping. Base on past 2 hike point...is $3.8x ...today's high is $3.82.....in general this is a point to break thru.....which i don't think it will for now unless market is recovering which i doubt so.

tml shall check if my prediction is correct....(still pretty newbie at this...just a blog for my record purpose n some sharing).

NOTE THAT I AM NEW SO WHAT I SAY IS JUST PURELY MY VIEW AND DOES NOT STAND FOR ANY OUTCOME.

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Happy that there are friends that we can discuss with...waiting for more to join in (but those mentally prepared...and did their homework). Remind each other not to be too greedy and manage expectation. Lets all learn, share and earn together! Looking forward to the day I can share the joy with my family.

To all friends...paiseh but I just can't keep the joy to myself, hee. But dun be too tempted...nothing is 100% guaranteed in this world. Know yourself, risk treshold, self control, are important.

SLeepy.......yawn...go rest n tml wake up early to mug^^ nite all........happy day ... NDS NDS NDS... hahaa

These few days my siblings been talking about death note...having watched death note 1 and 2 on movie (yes i like it alot!) i was arguing with them that in movies kira and L haven die (huh? read on...).

Then finally i was convinced that I am wrong......my memory stops at death note 1....but yet I strongly remember that after watching death note 2 i find the show very good and better than 1, more mind games....but the ending i recall was wrong. I start to doubt if I really have watched death note 2.

So ... I re-watched death note 2 today, i remember the part they were imprison...even the part where kira planned to gave up his death note book...but not anything after that. How weird...normally i have memories of drama/movies i watch.....at least I won't forget the ending ..... not to such extreme. Now i feel as though memory was taken away from me. Hahaha.....whats happening? I actually beginning to doubt myself i really have watched death note 2!!! so i traced back my blog, find the date of release for part 2 in SG and trace my blog back then.......i found a table posting that I will be watching it on decemeber 30th 2006 with theGanG before I left for HK. thats how i confirmed I watched...

Forgetting abt the movie is no big deal.....the thing here is that I feel as if part of this memory is entirely removed from me. Weird feeling........

Now...with a half joking tone...if someday i just die suddenly dun be surprise...i must say recently i do experience weird stuff...like chest pain (but my fren says thats heatiness from bak ku teh..LOL) .... was eating extremely slow that day but i bet no one notices....after yuan lin and wx came, i feel chest pain .... burining with almost every slurp of e green tea i drink.......making it hard to swallow....dun understand why.

Might have over stressed my body for past few weeks....but well not to worry...I have been re-charging it these few days. Hee.....while preparing for GEK test. I love myself too...haha....will sleep before 2am today and get at least 6hrs of sleep....for the next few days.

Ok ... lengthy weird post....now i shall blog about 2 other things in mind, 1. cost of supporting a family, 2. fencing ^_^

Have you ever wonder whats the cost of supporting a family?

Recently i noe i been talking abt financial problems etc...yesterday i went out with my parents + sis to the $10 KTV. well i expected to pay for everyone, but what i forget to count is the $$ i have to spent after that. We have dinner at the porridge stall ... and then bought towel at OG. Total expenses for the day was about $100. How xiong is that right...thinking of that i wonder how my dad manage to bring up 4 of us. Despite so ... there are things I just cannot forgive him, so I convince I am an ungrateful brate too haha.

But then imagine a simple outing for 4 cost $100 ........let alone 6 in the family. How xiong to support a family. Kor Kor jia you ar........the burden i can help to support is limited too.

Now i can say...if one day I have kids I might probably spoilt him/her badly........i will give him/her what I cannot get now. (I dun blame anyone for that.....is life :) and is part of growing)

Ok ... now abt fencing^^

Fencing ....... WHen you meet the right opponent

Last thursday was probably the last training I attended before holiday. Is a free fence day so no training, just fencing match. I fenced 4 matches, 2 seniors and twice with the same person, Oliver who joined 1 or 2 training earlier than me.

Match one with senior (guy) who fenced half year more than me, 7 v 3 (i lose).

Match two with the same female senior who scored 10 v 0 before......this time I aim for 1 point, and I got it! but i didn't fence well, the moment the match ended the other senior who presi ... said this " why you never think?". Then i was thinking...i got think ar...then he ask "so what are you thinking? you are just blindly trying to score". I stunned...i was thinking isn't it about scoring? But i can't answer his 2nd questions....is like a wake up call to me!

Anyway with that in mind, I determine to think more the next match, and I asked Oliver to fence with me. He was much taller and bigger in size than me, there are time when we attack each other but his foil reached me but my foil couldn't reach him, so I had to think how to attack. I think more........retreat more this time, was a fun and long match, score was 7 v 5 (yeah i won). SO tiring, but i did learn something, THINK. I realise I am at disadvantage at distance, so I tried other ways like peril his attack then reposte, or attack from the other direction.

After that he fenced with captain and a national fencer, I know they put water but still I think Oliver fenced very well, I asked myself if I could do as well, I feel probably can't. So i concluded winning Oliver previously is just by luck. But then........he wanted to fence me again, a little surprise but well....I understand ^_^ He won against the captain (captain put water also lah)......he wanted to win the match just now. I wanted to see if it was just luck just now too so I agree. Before the match i also learned sth from coach while watch other senior fence.

I realise when the other opponent gained priority i shouldn't try to attack, I should try to retreat...although can try to counter by beating his/her blade to gain priority again but is better to move back and let opponent miss then i counter. And i noe I shd not move back while attacking as I will lose my advantage with priority. I understand all these depends on situation though...but I wanted to test it out.

So me and Oliver fenced again, again I lose out at first, but few sudden strikes allow me to gain points and at draw at certain point. Practicing what i just learn from coach as well, i find myself retreating alot, and scoring with counter atk. And I think many points he scored not counted due to the priority thing. But there are times I retreated till no more space to move back that I have to take him right on and sometimes I lose the point.

But in the end the game ends off with 10 v 9 (i think so... was a long and close game again but yeah i won). I must say I really enjoyed the last match alot, cos I feel the improvement, the use of techniques...too bad he is going back (cos he on exchange)......sad, a good opponent, practising partner just left. Is not so much abt winning (ok i admit winning was fun)...but abt fencing with someone on par.....is damn fun......how am I going to find pple on par again? Seniors are so much more pro, will take some time to catch up with them. Hope I remember the learning on that day and practice it more in future. I am so happy i finally put my "brain" at work during sparring......i long know my weak point in TKD was lack of strategy and thinking....so happy that i manage to use abit more brain in fencing.

Paiseh a very lengthy post... but......fencing is getting more and more fun and interesting! ....hahaa. En garde......fence! Ok...got my first few bruises from fencing...here and there from Oliver..LOLOL...on my leg and hand! hahaha...ok back to my revision!

Wanted to blog about Fencing but kept forgetting.....LOL.....and also lack of pictures~~

(images from sonamafencing dot com)

hee..ok ok .....next time i put my own pics ok.....when i got one^^|

Been learning fencing for about 2 to 3 months already...currently still very noob but can free fence abit already.

First time I get in touch with fencing was actually when I was year 1 in NUS, went for fencing appreciation back then, $12.....i still remember. hee.... but that time was still in Taekwondo at SP so never join.

Now, year 3 sem 2....finally I joined, wanted to join last sem but I noe i will be too busy with 3214......so in e end i only joined this sem. At first.....when i first joined, I was watching this anime "bamboo blade" ...... which talks about Kendo.

Conincidentally......every thursday training kendo will also be training at the same hall.....I must admit it attracts my attention.....and interest, at a point I wonder if i join a wrong sports.

Then.....recently ... fenced with a senior who fenced half a year earlier than me, 7 v 6......can't believe it, i actually won. Of cos feeling of winning is great, but what I am enjoying so much is the exchange of "blow". Cos before this...I only have experience thrasing pple in fencing appreciation or ganna thrash by seniors in club (like 10 v 0 .....sianz) .

The feeling of exchange blow is so fun, so cool that we can attack, parry and even riposte! (ok ... i noe i am not riposting ........ or too slow~~ )

For those who wants to know more can read this site:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fencing

Last but not least.......finally submitted 4253 report !!!!!!!! yeah ...just need to finish up the promotion note n print........cut.......+ do gradient assignemtn and yaeh i am done with projs. Can start studying for GEK2507 test on next week!

Before tat....i shall rest abit....a while..LOL

After a hectic week of rushing proj........fell asleep on infront of cpu on my chair or sofa almost every alternate day........ finally things are coming to an end.

Just submitted my CS2102, got my test result for 54.....quite ok ..... but then everyone aslo did quite well...swt^^|

Was talking abt job prospect......haha....everyone is like thinking which govt bodies to go into ... or which MNC.... like the diolette that came today ...the IT audit job looks pretty good too! haha...... are we spoilt for choices? haha.... Shd I stick to my current company with the offers given? haha..........dunno sia. see how ... still have 1 more years to go.

Just signed up for undergrad discussion leader for next semester CS1101......to fulfill my degree requirement. Hope I can cope sia...3 x lvl 4 + 1 x lvl 3 + teaching.......OMG!

next sem is a busy sem.....buzz buzz

Today went Sheng Siong to shop for some tibits n ice cream for me n my families......wah...so many ice cream on offer........i dunno which one to chose. haahah

Exam n test nearing.......MUG MUG MUG!!!

Friday is my free day...but so far it is always burnt with project meeting or projects. but today...i am damn happy with the project lah!

For my consulting module....we had been doing a real life consulting proj for about 3 months, and only get to meet the client twice. At first I am still unsure if she is really keen in starting, as she was always too busy to meet us. However, today, I am so happy to know that she took the initiative to get started! We got the domain already!!!! and project is like going to be materialise soon! soooooooo happy!

It is like effort pay off, and knowing what we have been doing is being put into use. Sincerely hope the proj will be a successful one, if not because I already have a job that I am pretty happy with I would join in! this is so cool.

But today nv get to go n celebrate lester's post bdae...paiseh..put aeroplan.

Thursday fencing training, got coach! yeah finally and i think it is good, i learn more and feel more like a proper training, damn tired after that, I went home KO soon after i finish supper. Tiring but the training won't let me feel my knee is not going to make...is like just right amount of training and sweating.

Fenced against seniors (in terms of fencing experience), she put water....very obvious but then she also did attack lah. Finally today my foil not flyig very oof today..although still abit off....(hit below twice...but i think is becos she peril) ... at least i nv hit floor or air too much. 7 v 2......haaha...hope next time i can get such score without her put water........human is self contridicting...she dun put water, 10 v 0....damn sianz..she put water also ...abit sianz..lol....hahaha but ok lah, right from beginning i noe is a learning match not a competiting one. Need more freshies leh....then can spar with pple on par..........i dun mind spar with senior..but fencing with someone who learn 2 years already abit hard to gauge if i did improve.

Sold all my stock yesterday....tot prices will fall soon then today went up again. LOLOL...but then ok lah, in the game of stock, is not only abt observing market, is also abt controlling emotions.

I just concluded this afternoon...those who are spending future $$, dunno how to control their own finance are not suitable for stock market, as they will be overcome by thier own greed and burn themselves. Not saying I will not, I am also fighting with my own greed...but i believe I got slightly better control over my greed, or rather I dun like to do things outside of my limit. So i don't short / contra.......i buy what i can afford. This may sound stupid to some ...as is equal to got $$ dun want to earn....but hey...as long as i can sleep well at nite is ok. hahaa

From now onwards, i will on/off blog abt the Market (stocks)...but I will bracket out the part for MARKET, so those not interested can skip ^^ hee.

MARKET TALK
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NOTE THAT I AM NEW SO WHAT I SAY IS JUST PURELY MY VIEW AND DOES NOT STAND FOR ANY OUTCOME.

Market still look bullish......although end off a bit weak, monday will be bull or bear? Guess??? hee...my guess is bear..since I see profit taking. But then tonite Wall street seems to be on the green......haha...who noes? But if semb corp / singtel / swiber dropp........i shall go in .....buy for a longer hold. then buy/sell cosco or olam for short term gain....maybe even raffles edu or golden agri.

I just realise my problem, i do technical analysis but my buy/sell is way too short term....short for even technical analysis to get effect. thats why i will buy at right time, sell at a profitable but not the best time. Hahhaa...need more patient. As for fundamental analysis..how sia..abit return all my finance to my lectuerer le..lolol.....see news see news...swiber alot of good news...drop drop ..n i will go in n hold!

In my learning phrase..so to track my forsight...i decide to blog my view also...to keep track to see if i am zhun even when I am not buying...LOL. (no $$ lol)

For now i think monday these few will drop :

Counter	Closing Price today (28th)
swiber	2.63
wilmar	4.15
Raffles Edu	1
Singtel	3.91

Which one will rise...i am unsure........cos..overall i still believe now is not the actual recovery...still feel bear will come. But Cosco might still be going strong...who noes^_^

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Exam nearing...gonna do study plan soon...this sem mut get A...cannot anway how...haha...must end my work this week....so will try to chiong finish everything..then chiong 02, 53....then yeah..study hard hard for exam...practice 02 like mad...DIE DIE MUST GET A

haha......mugger...yeah i jut became one. Speculator...yeah i was one, investor? Yeah i gonna be one.....shorter? nope...nv, contra ? nope nv.....failure? NEVER! hahaha

was negative this afternoon..now rather positive arn't I ? haha. all thanks to our client, she make my day by materialising the concept! happy happy...happppppppppppppppppppppy!

I think i am too impluse today...when I didn't follow what I believe, I feel I lack courage...when I follow my instinct...it seems too impluse. Anyway overall i feel I am not cleared minded enough. Missing the best moment I feel so sianz...despite still profiting...then I realise my fault, always waiting for a "bigger apple" to come. I showed this weak point before...in playing boardgame, and I realise I am repeating it again.

Cooled down, think through what I want and what I am doing again. Guess I am too excited with this new thingy I am trying, learning and excited about. So excited that most of my friends around me know...and comments are flying everywhere. Worst of all I am easily sway by what people say. I admit I do not read news enough...(no time....haha excuses I know)...I am just plain lazy believing in technical analysis. hahhaa...ok fine fine. (but i do read news lah.....not enough though)

Rather panic when I get home today, then I cooled down and think again, why I dare to make the first step in the first place? Becos I know I am trying within my limit. TOday...I guess I have stepped on my limit a little...but well...still within what I am capable of. Need to cool down, listen to advise but not swayed so easily. Need to believe more in myself and my decision.

Have to learn to stop afraid of losing...losing itself is a learning process. I give myself sometime ... at the end of about 10 tries....the overall is then consider outcome...individual maybe pure luck I would say. Today is the 2nd try....and after these 2 I might be pausing for a month to concentrate on exam as I sense the unhealthiness..hahaha although it does keep me awake in lecture...but I am not listening much. hahahah

Go to do my tutorial...a learning phrase...and I feel so adult like...my god.

Wanted to blog few days ago but was so god damn busy with my work and study that I hardly have enough sleep!

Friday
Rush work from morning till late afternoon then I went to celebrate Tina's birthday.
Cooked bak kut teh for theGanG, think never cook long enough...if not might be even nicer^^
We played muchin...and...manz...we should burn away the Divine Intervention!!! Clerics is so cheaty~~~

Saturday and Sunday are mad working days...I code until my hands are aching! At first I tot I am aching due to fencing training then I realise...no...my left hand is also aching!!! So I concluded that I code (use cpu) too much.

Finish up status report for 4253 and chiong work all the way till monday morning 6.30am....dying from it man...wake up about 3hours later to continue and then go for lesson. Do CS3254 project till about 9pm in school! Wanted to finish it but was way too tired...so I went to sleep but...

Tuesday .... wake up at 6.30am to finish up my CS3254 part...omg...I feel as if Im dying! lolol.....but now feel so much better after I finish my part for CS3254. heee

Realise one thing...technology report is still easier and I have more things to write as compare to a marketing / business planning / redesign report. hahaha (haha...figure out what module i talking about?)

Think i really code too much ...so much that now not only "coke" become "code", even "cook" become "code". So if someday I call you "code" please don't be surprise!

Greed has made me earn $100 less (on paper) ... haha..but well still must say is a good start, a lot of learning on both IQ and EQ.

Lastly...the N-G video clip that Clement made was so fun!!! Brings back alot of memories...ahah...looking at how dumb I am....kept NG-ing...was like omg..hahahaa...

Can't believe 1 year have passed!!!...........hahaha....so funny...I N-G so much^^| ops!

Ok....go to sleep le....so late le!!!

Am studying for my test...then i suddenly remember my time in hk.......miss alot of things there....miss alot of my travelling.

Me and Non Stop....will we really get to eat sushi together?

Bonnie...or sister? Is a twin and I always dunno who i am talking to!

Some of my floormate....

Back to study ...... mug mug mug...test test test! I want to go HK.......go overseas! Leave here...leave home. hahaha