Comments FeedFinally … its been a while since I last have time to blog. The last one was kinda in a rush.
Last week had been a packed week for me, everyday I just felt so busy and in rush. Thank God for the wisdom and help, there are things that I felt I didn’t have enough time to do it but managed to get through somehow 
Also, felt so blessed with the great weather yesterday that made the outing that we were organising a success (as long as everyone enjoyed themselves, I deemed it as a success ).
Recent happenings reminds me of something that was once mentioned to me before, which is a chat on reliability. Apart from that, there is also changes that I observed on myself (or should I say grow? :p).
Was helping in organising a company event and one of a team member fell sick resulting in tasks assigned having uncertainty of whether it will be completed. Falling sick is not something one can control, however, from this I realised how important it is to hand over things regardless. Perhaps there are other reasons but this just reminded myself of a topic on “reliablility” that someone once told me about. Back then I didn’t have that much of an appreciation but now I do.
There were some hiccups on the event in the morning also and I took up the lead and tried to set things in order. This makes me look back at the past me and now. I guess the two years here really trained me quite a bit. Before I graduated from University, I never really lead an event before, I will volunteer to help and take part but not coordinate the whole event. After I joined the company, given the “CCAs” that were assigned + opportunities to ran projects and test, unknowningly, it trains and built up the confidence. In the past, I felt that I cannot imagine how it is like to organise an event for hundreds of people. Now, I felt it was managable. I am not the organiser this round, I felt the need for the young ones to “chiong” while I just share my experience and provide my support. However, when hiccups in that morning occured, I was able to handle it. Not that it was well managed but I think it was still OK given that I was taken by surprise.
Though I think I still shown less confident now as compared to when I was in my final year in Uni, my confidence level starts to build up bit by bit again. Sometimes, confidence can be a deciding factor if you are able to handle certain situations and impact the outcome. If you believe you can succeed, you have already won half the battle.
Still not quite used to the change in pace at work. Perhaps I was so used to doing projects, so used to be in a swim or drown situation that I now cannot sit still when I was given time to rest and pick things. Like I mentioned, at times I really cannot see why HE arranged certain things in certain way but many times I know when I look back I understood (or will understand) why. Thus, I continued the walk, despite it may not be what I desire at that very moment but I know everything will turn out good, is all in his care. Even if one day I were to give up everything to do something else like go on long term missionary trip … it is planned also (not that I am willing to now but if the path is so, I know one day I will be). Israel, a place that I will definately go at least once in my life time ^_^