Comments FeedThis post … started almost a month ago yet I can’t finish it back then for various reason.
Everyone has a different expectations and we all defers in it. Apart from having expectations on ourselves (well…I am probably an old friend to expectations liao ^^|), one will always consciously or subconsciously place our own expectations on others. Then we will start to feel unhappy when people cannot meet our expectations. Aren’t human a weird species? How does another person know whats on your mind and let alone meeting the expectations?! I believed we all know this yet we kept falling into this all the time.
I have this expectation on X and X have this expectation on Y and the story goes on. Things can become very painful at times when the expectations are repeatedly not being met. Yet, many a times…we failed to realise that the pain was caused by ourselves and our own expectations. The way to be happy is to let go of such expectations, as simple as that yet how many can achieve it? However, letting go expectations doesn’t mean that you move away.
I was once caught in a painful path also, started off without much expectations but it unknowningly builts up and I sank deeper than I realised. Until it hit a point where I find it too painful to continue yet very painful to let go also. Words that I have said, I remembered and have no intention of going back on them … yet I knew these probably does not meant much (yes, is my own assumption again :p). That was the first time I said such things … and maybe the last time? It could be coincidences for situations that I felt disappointed or upset about. 有人说没有拥有过所以没什么好难过的，也有人说拥有了再失去比较痛苦。。。though I logically agrees to all these but my emotions cannot accept it. Maybe because I felt I am one step a head of not having it at all yet I knew I am nowhere near having it + it was a fact that I was in pain (but this fact may not be the ultimate truth, hee).
Thankful for those who helped me out of this, sharing my view & showing me things in another perspective. It was when I felt bad for even having the thoughts to walk away that I truely let go. Indeed, I had let go, but not by walking away. I am still there, just that I do away with the expectations and let nature take its course.
A song that I liked a lot now :p
林峰 – 爱不疚
曲:郑智伟
词:张美贤
收藏在眼眸 常徘徊左右 爱 猜到没有
愉快玩笑後 能全然退後 你 开心就够
这种感觉太亲厚 讲一千句也不够
假使讲了 你听到後或会走
这种恋爱太罕有 不需真正拥有
成全 衷心祝福然後就放手
放手 放开所有 彼此更自由
放手 其实我绝非爱得不够
放手 豁出所有 还有这个好友
已经 已经足够
遥远是宇宙 静静在背後 去看守就够
这种感觉太亲厚 讲一千句也不够
即使一刹有过冲动 挽你手
这种恋爱太罕有 不需真正拥有
成全 多舍不得仍然 是放手
放手 放开所有 彼此更自由
放手 其实我绝非爱得不够
放手 豁出所有 还有这个好友
已经 已经足够
放手 我的牵挂 找不到尽头
放手 期望你幸福甚麽都有
也许 爱很深厚 然而我早看得透
放手 至可拥有