Today was really … “happening”!
Firstly…I was informed suddenly that I need to report to TEC with almost immediate effect but I still need to do whatever is on my plate. This sudden things is like super AA category of importance…and timeline is super short and I have no experience at it! I need to be able to cope with this + my 100% at current unit, this is really a great challenge! Hope I can cope with it!
My first concern is whether it will affect my future rotation…but I might have worried too much. Nonetheless hope the rotation plan still sticks…
Next was very happy that my LD and LDLD and chopsticks sister are all so concerned abt me…that LDLD waited for me just to talk to me about it. Because of this…we moved one more step forward…in terms of sharing, sharing with her even very personal probelms.
However, I am quite disappointed with myself about handling something that originally very simple into very complicated stuff. I think too much….lead to some unnecessary unhappiness/misunderstanding. Am quite angry with myself lah..tat I did not cherish the closeness that I yearned for…that is right infront of me…omg. Now then I know how closed my heart is…a great wake up and opening up….this very moment.
Though there are things that I did not purposely do…yet ended badly…overall I really handled whole thing quite badly lah ><
Lastly, I am amaze at the level of understanding they know abt me…so amaze…I have never in my life engaged in such indepth topic i felt.
On the way back….I just tear-ed like shit on the bus…weak I am … I also dunno why I tear, probably is because I am touched + I am angry with myself for handling the thing so badly + a bit overwhelmed.
Then while I am trying to cool down from tearing, 2 aunties actually fought on the bus! OMG…this is so ridiculous, fighting just for standing space…OMG. One of the auntie kicked the other and that auntie fall on me..gosh, now feel my neck abit uncomfortable after being crashed by her! Then after we exit the expressway….there are police here stopping the bus for this fighting case! So i gotta get down the bus and I walked back from 257!
Very sleepy le…nite….
Need to sleep le….nite all. tired night. (sianz..right before I want to sleep…I become ATM again…when is this going to stop?)
Posted 10 months, 1 week ago at 2:34 am. 3 comments
Was trying for the whole afternoon on the excel macro that I said I will be doing yesterday. First time coding macro, hahaha…thus google became my best friend again! I think its been about 6 months since I last coded anything, felt great when I completed what I want to achieve!
So logged into my work email to send it to J just to realise that she sent out an email, which most probably saved my day 
Hahhaa…..I overlooked certain things but with this email I guess things should be OK? haha..but I absolutely did not expect this email…haha..so happy.
All the more I felt worth it…spending my weekend on sat’s work and on this macro. Hahhaa…..there are reasons why some people worth you putting more effort into helping them, cos they worth helping! (Hope my macro will be able to be of some help lah…LOLOL)
Its been a while since I last felt that I don’t mind going for work without pay/off hahaaha! Like this feeling. Gotta sleep again, hope coming week will be a smooth and great week!
Posted 10 months, 2 weeks ago at 11:42 pm. Add a comment
Theoretically this is not the first day, I came down weeks ago before but just to observe. This time round, I did some real work! Yeah ^^ Though I was asked to come down to “look see” today too, I myself am actually quite keen in this as well as I been hearing about it and people whom I am close with are very much involved in the project. Thus was quite happy to be ask to go, however, I also didn’t want myself to waste time thus volunteered for some work
Last night wanted to sleep early as today gotta wake up at 5.30am for work, but was unable to do so as I met up with a financial planner and a friend. Not only that, it took me a while to fall asleep because I was both excited and worried about today.
Excited, because I can get involved and work with colleagues that I longed to work with.
Worried…because I am not sure what I will be doing + I’m worried I will screw up and leave a bad impression….
Why? Although I was told one person’s opinion is not impt…I still mind some people’s opinion/impression of me alot. (just like the person who told me this says she used to mind someone’s opinion a lot…thus I say I understand) I was very happy yesterday when I came to know about that she actually have good impression of me. Somehow we were chatting and mentioned first impression of her, was trying hard to recall as I know it was in a meeting where we first met (apart from the introduction…although I don’t remember being introduced to her). She said for someone this new to be able to contribute in a meeting and say sensible things, is pretty good. I can’t recall what I said, though I do remember saying things…I was called into the meeting so last minute and back then I started working for about 10 days or less only! Though i tried hard to recall yesterday, but nothing much came to my mind ><
Forgot to say yesterday, but you did leave an impression as well, I was thinking wah..this “zai” gal must be you.
Nonetheless, am still very happy to know that 2 person have good impression of me. Therefore, the more I don’t want to screw up this impression and were abit concern abt the fact that the people up there never assign work to me yet I am going to helpout …thus was a bit worried about today, worried I will implicate people or things. Luckily…H was already informed, so turned out quite okie I think. Morning was abit screwed up, as I thought I was suppose to work with CK (as I was told she will lookout for me)…then I realised she also not sure what I am suppose to help with. Next thing came some work finally…yet I did not think of a smarter way to do it…….and doing things in a super primitive way. Dotz…
Luckily after that I think I did pretty ok for what was assigned, hope overall I did be of some help to the team. Though many asked why am I there today, but frankly speaking, I don’t mind going for every session:) But because of my Japanese class, I would need to leave at 2pm though. Anyway my work today are mainly before 2pm…after that I was actually trying to figure out some excel formulas for future ID matching purposes.
Today, I failed to practice lesson 1,2,3 again! Surrounding awareness >< Hahhaa…but was fun that both of us have the same mentor/friend/senior sharing the lesson 1,2,3 and even 4,5,6. First … I was overly confident when I commented abt the macro….ai….that I thought I sound abit arrogant >< (I am just trying to say is do-able…nothing else … ^^|). Then followed by my lack of surrounding awareness >< Hahha…was shocked when J mentioned “surrounding awareness”…as she mentioned that our lesson 1,2,3 are different 1,2,3 but yet she knew abt this! After that when I dinner with LDLD, I then realised my 1,2,3 is communication 1,2,3….her’s is awareness 1,2,3. Hahhaa..but somehow surrounding awareness was taught to both of us…hahaha. LDLD even said…”you two ar…” hahhahaha. She is like taking 2 little gals in hand……actually, we are just blunt/straight forward in our ways…LOLOL
Was very happy later on as well when LDLD expressed interest in having tea with me and especially saying is good that I am keen to come and learn things outside my working hours. She says is rare nowadays and is a good attitude. Was rather surprise and abit shy ^^| but am very happy at the same time on this comment though ^_^. These are people whom I admire and lookup upon, and learning to be like them….zai and dependable! Therefore, their opinion matters alot to me…LOL
Made many new friends…in this short 3.5months…I considered a few of them close friends there, with them I always let down my guards and sometimes even get on quite personal topic. But was abit shocked that day when LD says this to me…”to me don’t need to be politically correct”….was pretty shocked but pephaps…I tried too hard to cool her down..LOLOL. For a moment I thought she was angry with me, was quite worry…luckily is not and this incident actually brought us closer…hahaa
Although new friends are found, I still miss my existing friends also lah…theGanG when shall we meet up? LOLOL
Posted 10 months, 2 weeks ago at 12:50 am. Add a comment
Recently…I seems to be bumping into pple whom have similar characteristic…or style as me. It is fun hanging out with them….maybe because we are similar in one way or another, we get along pretty well.
Today…in continue to the similarities…I realised that that one of tham and I have even more similarities, even to the extend of abt bgr…mmmm. I am amazed how she know we are similar at one look because I’m really quite bad at it…hahaha. But as time goes by, I too slowly notice more similiarities. As of this current moment, I am pretty amazed infact!
Naive, ambition….trust……I am having all of it now but certaintly hope I won’t be put down. Before I started working here, I certaintly do not believe that much in friendship at work, but just this 3.5 months…my wall is broken, my belief have changed and I am making friends at work. With alot of trust also…there are people whom I respect, admire and look up to…people whom I enjoy hanging out with, lunching with … and even want to hang out with after work!
I really hope…the trust will not back fire at myself. We might all end up in different units, but I certaintly hope the friendship remains…at least to me, you guys are more than just colleagues
Posted 10 months, 3 weeks ago at 12:19 am. Add a comment
Been quite a while since I last blogged…been wanting to blog but always no time (yeah..excuses right?^^| haha)
Lets talk abt Diving first, went to Tioman to dive on 9th to 11th Oct. Was my 2nd diving, I must say visibility there is not so good, but the last 2 dives were pretty good, especially the last one, I saw Stingray ^^
Some interesting things abt this trip:
- I got diarrehea
- I got 3 guys as my dive buddy! LOLOL..rotating lor..omg……..luckily day 2 no need to rotate anymore. All are very nice^^
- The most exciting things I have done was not abt diving…but….jumping off the boat without any equips!!! This dive operator have this “Graduation Jump” thingy for all new learners…when I saw them jumping off the deck of the boat beside me, I was excited and yet at the same time scared! Then they asked all leisure diver to jump..i was like OMG! I was standing by the railing hugging the pole like mad………almost freaked out! Then I told myself…死就死。。。so many pple down there surely will have someone to save me, so I just jumped! hahaha…actually the wet suit will help with the buoyancy…so not so bad lah…plus the water was quite calm so I can trap water and swim around. This jump really booasted my water confidence alot man!
This is the first time in my life…I am swimming in the middle of no where in the sea!!!!!!
Time constraint so I shall talk abt my work now….
After 3 and the half months, I finally did something right and was so happy that I received some form of 肯定 at work, so these 2 weeks I been very happy at work! On top of that, recently I just extended my stay in my current unit. At first I was kinda worry that I will be missing out as I will be missing another unit, but today the job scope that my boss wants me to work on is pretty interesting and I am pretty interested. So funny….now I am my own project’s project manager! (I was the business anaylst….then now I am the PM..haha..imagine I ask myself to work faster..wahahhaa ask myself to produce user requirement faster! hahahha so interesting!).
Hope the project can be completed by mid december and things will go smoothly! Looking forward!
Lastly…I really like the people here…so nice to mix with ..hahaha! Enjoying every minute of my stay, maximizing my time there and gonna learn whatever I can! Make the most out of it! Thank god for things to turn out well
Posted 10 months, 3 weeks ago at 11:44 pm. 3 comments
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