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Today was really … “happening”!

Firstly…I  was informed suddenly that I need to report to TEC with almost immediate effect but I still need to do whatever is on my plate. This sudden things is like super AA category of importance…and timeline is super short and I have no experience at it! I need to be able to cope with this + my 100% at current unit, this is really a great challenge! Hope I can cope with it!

My first concern is whether it will affect my future rotation…but I might have worried too much. Nonetheless hope the rotation plan still sticks…

Next was very happy that my LD and LDLD and chopsticks sister are all so concerned abt me…that LDLD waited for me just to talk to me about it. Because of this…we moved one more step forward…in terms of sharing, sharing with her even very personal probelms.

However, I am quite disappointed with myself about handling something that originally very simple into very complicated stuff. I think too much….lead to some unnecessary unhappiness/misunderstanding. Am quite angry with myself lah..tat I did not cherish the closeness that I yearned for…that is right infront of me…omg. Now then I know how closed my heart is…a great wake up and opening up….this very moment.

Though there are things that I did not purposely do…yet ended badly…overall I really handled whole thing quite badly lah ><

Lastly, I am amaze at the level of understanding they know abt me…so amaze…I have never in my life engaged in such indepth topic i felt.

On the way back….I just tear-ed like shit on the bus…weak I am … I also dunno why I tear, probably is because I am touched + I am angry with myself for handling the thing so badly + a bit overwhelmed.

Then while I am trying to cool down from tearing, 2 aunties actually fought on the bus! OMG…this is so ridiculous, fighting just for standing space…OMG. One of the auntie kicked the other and that auntie fall on me..gosh, now feel my neck abit uncomfortable after being crashed by her! Then after we exit the expressway….there are police here stopping the bus for this fighting case! So i gotta get down the bus and I walked back from 257!

 

Very sleepy le…nite….

   Need to sleep le….nite all. tired night. (sianz..right before I want to sleep…I become ATM again…when is this going to stop?)